Monday, August 30, 2010

just us- deep

i don't get very "deep" on this blog. it's not that i'm incapable of doing so- it's just something that doesn't come naturally to me.

i actually go out of my way to read blogs where moms "go deep" because it makes me feel less grinch like.
but for real- i mean, my husband & kid know i love them, so why do i need to spell it out? right?

well, alex & i actually had a pretty "deep" past few days so i shall expound on the experience.

the husband skydives- it's his "thing" and a couple times a year he'll take about 4 days to do just that. so thursday - sun he was off doing his thing while alex & i were left to our own devices.

i got her up. i put her down. i dressed her. i fed her. i clothed her, i changed her. i played with her. i held her. i "walked" with her. i danced with her. i sang to her (poor thing). i laughed with her. i told her no. i told her yes. i told her good job. i clapped for her.

you catch my drift. now these are normally the things i mainly do anyway- but it was somehow different because noone else was around to possibly be "part" of it all. it was just us.
and even though i was exhausted by day's end- i loved it. i loved the fact that it was the 2 of us against the world (a little extreme but still).

we had an awesome 3 1/2 days alone (punctuated by an outing here & there)

and when daddy came up unexpectedly early on sunday afternoon i was tickled pink to see the alex was content to sit with me.
even as she grinned & babbled at him, it was my neck that her sticky fingers clung to. and when he handed her a cheerio it was me that she offered to share it with. me!

after about 20 minutes the presence of daddy won her over. the promise of being held an extra 8 inches higher in the air is too much for an 11 month old to resist.

but as her held her & she looked over his shoulder- it was still me that she held her hand out to. and when i grabbed her hand and followed them around the yard, it was i who was smacked with the full 100 volt wattage of her smile.

and as i reveled in that moment i realized that in 15 years she'll bestow upon me the same smile while standing next to a 2 door sports car that she's decided she wants us to buy for her 16th birthday...and then i felt a little sick inside; because i know, as i watched her turn that smile on daddy who immediately went starry eyed , that even if i can resist the "deep" enough to say "absolutely not!", daddy will say "yes, of course!"

and now- onto something i'm good at. pictures! i have a ton- so i'll post some today & some tomorrow (or wed or whenever)

saturday was the perfect weather for sitting outside in next to no clothing- so that's what we did (don't worry- i kept my clothes on):


she was so content to be almost naked. and full of popsicles.


the sun was perfect


and alex & cessna once again cemented their friendship


you should know this face by now. it's the "no you can't eat acorns because you're not a squirrel!" fallout face.


i managed manged to get some "us" shots. i once again neglected to grab the camera remote- so an insane amount of running back & forth ensued.


and getting up close & personal shots is next to impossible. focus where? focus what?


and trying to capture the "deep" serenity that i felt = fail.

but you get the idea.
i hope everyone had a wonderful, "deep" weekend.
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Carol said...

I love this deep side of you... and I love that last shot of you too...oh, and that picture of Alex with the sun flare behind her....I die. It's gorgeous!

When did da bump get so bumpy? Seriously, time is moving at a ridiculous speed!

Bethany said...

Great captures!! As sad as Alex's face is that she can't eat acorns, I find it very cute :)

Mrs.F said...

Awesome post. I know the feeling exactly!

And as always... beautiful pictures! You look adorable with your pregnant belly.

kk @ the mom diggity said...

Gorgeous new pics! It's so great to see the smiles our girls have for their daddy....but my heart melts when I get the best ones :)

Elizabeth said...

now i don't want another baby right now, but seeing those pictures of Alex makes me want to come and steal her! she is SO gorgeous! you also look amazing!

love this post! :)

D said...

I secretly love that H is a mama's girl and that even when I'm completely exhausted, she wants only me.

And those pics? GORGEOUS! Like beyond awesome. And the belly is fantastic too :)

Beckie said...

GORGEOUS PICS!! Mama and baby :) So happy you got to spend some alone time w/her. She is precious! What camera do you have? WOW it takes awesome pics.

Jess said...

Wonderful pictures- I love the ones of you both on the blanket. Your belly looks adorable in that dress.
I second Beckie's question- what camera do you have, exactly? Because I need one!
It's nice to see the "deep"er side of you. And to hear you admit that you love stealing Alex all for yourself sometimes.

jenn said...

i love your back yard! can i come live there????? it looks so peaceful!!!!
and your pictures are just breathtaking!
my daughter is the same me, love me, love me all day...daddys home@@@

t.bird said...

gracias ladies!

and for those that asked: i shoot with a Nikon D90 & my primary lense is a 35mm 1.8

however, while i do have a nice camera i don't shoot in Auto & it's actually taken me over a year to get to where i'm at right now (and i STILL have a long way to go in my own opinion).
lots of reading, practice, failing, online help & etc etc!

i also do editing in LR3.

i'm just putting that out there because i don't want anyone to run & drop the $ on a D90 & then be frustrated (like i was) :)

but i do appreciate the comments- makes me feel like i'm doing something right!

C said...

You look stunning in that last pic.

Deep looks good on you. :) I know exactly what you are saying, because I just recently had a few moments like this with Gianna and felt the same exact thing.

melonbelly said...

wonderful pics! I wish I had "your eye" for it!

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