Monday, December 29, 2008
1dpt ..embryo is growing and developing
2dpt... Embryo is now a blastocyst
3dpt....Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day
4dpt.. Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining
5dpt.. Implantation begins,as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining
6dpt.. Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining
7dpt.. Morula is completely inmplanted in the lining and has placenta cells & fetal cells
8dpt...Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood
9dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
10dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
11dpt...HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on HPT
-1dpt ..embryo is growing and developing
0dpt... Embryo is now a blastocyst
1dpt....Blastocyst hatches out of shell on this day
2dpt.. Blastocyst attaches to a site on the uterine lining
3dpt.. Implantation begins,as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining
4dpt.. Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining
5dpt.. Morula is completely inmplanted in the lining and has placenta cells & fetal cells
6dpt...Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood
7dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
8dpt...More HCG is produced as fetus develops
9dpt...HCG levels are now high enough to be immediately detected on HPT
i found this thanks to the lovely Google search engine. i'm sure it's not 100% accurate- but pretty close!!
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
12/21: BW&US @ 7:15am = all looks even more well
12/21: Trigger shot @ 9pm = let's get even more bloated- woot
12/23: ER @ 9am (arrive @ 8) = full bladder, mucho pain- awesomeness
12/26 or 28: 3dt or 5dt = squee!!!
so there you go- my trigger was last night, my retrieval is tomorrow morning & if all goes as it did last time: i'll have plenty of healthy eggs with will become embryos, thanks to my husband's lovely sperm, which will then be popped into my uterus, resulting in the conception of my adorable boy/girl twins.
yes? haha- one can hope...and pray!
Sunday, December 21, 2008
"are you peeing yet?"
and that was that! cessna HATES the snow- her poor little feet get so cold so she starts holding up her paws & wimpering & she won't move until you pick her up. it's adorable.
Friday, December 19, 2008
ugh- the ganirelix needles are a bit bigger than the gonal-f ones- but it's usually not an issue. however, as you can see, it was this morning.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
some yummy "trail mix" containers- i use quotations because this "trail mix" consists of a layer of each the following;
m&m's- mini oreos- granola bites- chopped Pirouette's & chocolate chunks. HA! super healthy, i know! my elfster got one- lucky her!
lastly- i got these SUPER CUTE doxie Birkies™ off of Ebay. i think they're absolutely fabulous!!!
Follies= many mature ones
LO: 16, 15, 14x2, 13, 12.5 & 12
RO:14, 13, 12x2 & 11x2
gonal-f= 75iu thurs & fri
ganirelix= 1 pre-filled syringe fri & sat
f/u bw&us= sat @ 7a.m (cries)
so i'm sailing along rather smoothly- i will be stimming longer this cycle because i was started at much lower doses than my 1st fresh cycle- so this is good. i should trigger sometime this weekend or perhaps on monday (i'm guessing)and my ER will fall around the 23 or so(ish)
in other news- my bff at work is leaving. i should add that this bff is also my "go to girl" & my quasi "boss" she pretty much answers all my questions & listens to me bitch about everything. she's leaving us to pursue her nursing career & while i'm happy for her, who am i going to get to do all my work for me now? ::sob::
alas- perhaps i shall do it myself...ugh.
lastly: if i wanted to get high right now, i totally could. i would simply need to go stand in the stairwell for 5 minutes & take a few deep breaths.
the smell of fresh paint is intoxicating.
but i'm at work- so i shall refrain from such uncouth activities.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Follies= 2 "mature ones"
gonal-f= down to 75iu from 112.5iu
ganirelix= bring with me on thurs. because i may need to take it
f/u bw & us= thurs @ 6:45am
after 5 days of stims, everything i looking pretty good. my E2 tends to shoot up really high because i stim rather well, so my RE started me off at a pretty low dose of gonal-f- 112.5 (my first cycle had me @ 175iu or something like that) my E2 levels are already a little high, so this is why my dose is coming down to a mere 75iu for tonight & tomorrow. also after my appt on Thurs, if the ganirelix is needed that will bring my E2 down even more & will reduce the risk of OHSS.
the nurse only mentioned my mature follies- so i'm assuming i have a bunch of follies that are >10mm. by lowering my gonal-f dose, this will keep me from over-stimming & allow my non-mature follies to mature.
sooo yeah- that's that. i wish i were more excited, but it's not like my 1st cycle. don't get me wrong- i AM happy that things are progressing & that i even have this opportunity- but i'm still pretty wary. i'm also bloated, tired, crampy, headachey, grumpy & etc etc. so yeah- not the best combo.
but still- i AM thankful- very, very thankful.
Monday, December 8, 2008
i went in for my supression check @ 6:30 this lovely, cold morning- jeeze- & everything looked good on the ultrasound & i'll get my bloodwork results & instructions this afternoon. i should be starting stims on thurs. or fri.
my holiday office party is on thurs- along with cessna's vet appt. to get her stiches out. i'm going to do about 1-2 hours of office party & then head on home. the husband said he'd take her- but i don't feel like sticking around at the party anyway. if i leave early then i don't have to do the yankee swap or deal with the "you're not drinking?" queries. nice.
this weekend went swimmingly- the husband was hunting all day sat so i got to run some errands & finish one of the scarves i'm knitting. then on sun we managed to go to the mall & pick up his mom's b-day gift & use t he awesome Yankee Candle coupons that i aquired from the paper- SUPER score. we also made a one stop shop deal at Shaws where we managed to snag 95% of the giftcards we need for our friends/families for Christmas. so all that's left is some baking and maybe 1 or 2 more store runs. i was pleeeeased!
then we went to his parent's for dinner & after we got home i managed to back the red velvet cake that hi work requested for b-days this month. i will frost it tonight & that's another $20 in my pocket.
hmmm- i think that's about it for now. i'm waiting, with baited breath, on the Coach coupon that is coming to me from another lovely nestie- with this coupon i shall purchase the matching wallet to my latest Coach bag! SCORE! my husband doesn't think it's a score- but i do. plus, if he can spend $700 on a freaking rifle- i can spend LESS than $200 on a wallet. so THERE!
ok- that's really that!! i'm going to work now. perhaps. meh.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
the nurse called me a little later & told me to refill my BCP's (i took my last one last night) and take them until this coming sunday- then i go in at 6:30am (ugh) on mon for my suppression check! aaaaand then i start stimming on thurs/fri of next week!!!
yeah- i'm excited because we managed to get this squeezed in before the end of the year! i'd like to say that i'm sure this is going to work- but i'm still pretty wary of everything. we had 3 other perfect cycles that should have worked and they didn't, so why should this one? that sonds really aweful of me, but it's true. i'm not saying that i have no hope, faith, trust etc. but i also have all of the negative feelings that go along with someone who has 3 failed IVF/FET cycles.
-do i want this to work? yes! more than anything!!!
-am i sure it's going to? no. not even close. in fact, i prepare myself for the fact that it might not.
so yeah- i don't know. you can't just throw away the bitterness & be all puppies & rainbows. i did that that the first 2 times & now i just can't. but my fingers are crossed & my prayers are being said. this just HAS to work!!!
i hate to beg God for things- but i'm literally on my knees begging here. PLEASE GOD!! i know He's listening, i just don't know what His plan is. i really hope it's for us to have a baby, but what if it's not? how am i going to deal with that? can i pull it together & be like Job & trust Him 100%? i want to be able to, but it's going to be really hard for me to accept that. so i hope i can avoid all that hardship & that this is His will!! that would be nice :)
sooooo- that's about it. they didn't give me my test results for the biopsy so i'm assuming it came back clean (since he's giving the go ahead) so that's good news. i need to go buy some folic acid & more pre-natals (i've been neglecting to take those because all that extra iron really "gets" to me) and once my wheatgrass pills come in, i (and the man) can resume taking those. i was going to ask about accupuncture, but i forgot. maybe i'll mention it next week if i remember.
here are my stats:
we'll find out what that ? ='s in about 5 weeks. superness!
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
he already got his present a couple weeks ago (at his own request) so i don't have to go out searching for a gift- but i do need to go home tonight & make dinner & some sort of cake. hmmm.
in other news: i'm pissed. my appt with the genetic counselor went well on friday, and she promised she would fax over the notes to my RE yesterday so that he can review them & tell me what's going on.
so i called my RE yesterday morning & asked them to give me a call to make sure they got the notes & etc. sooo i wait ALL EFFING DAY and FINALLY at 5 the nurse calls (i'm pissed because i missed her call) and says that she "waited until 5 to see if the fax would come in but it never did- maybe tomorrow?"
ummm- wtf?! why would you wait until 5!? the genetic counselor's office closed at 5 so i couldn't even call & ask them to fax it! so now i'm pissed at the genetic's office & my RE's stupid nurse because if she had called, even an hour earlier, then i could have called & gotten this taken care of! but nope- now i have to deal with it today & waste another day (literally) of our very little time. GOD! people are so dumb. so yeah- i'm going to call the genetic counselor's office as soon as they open & reem them out- then i'm going to MAKE the dr. fax the info right THEN & call me RE's nurse again. stupid. i shouldn't have to do this crap. meh.
i know i'm only this pissed because we're really pressing our luck with the whole time thing here- but still. it's not hard to stick a couple sheets of paper in a fax machine & press the button. it's also not hard to pick up a phone & let a patient know (before 5) that they haven't recieved the fax that decides your effing future. idiots.
so because of all this i went to bed really angry last night & i stayed up thinking about how angry i've been lately. i mean seriously, i'm ALWAYS angry about stuff. like, while i'm laying there i hear the dog get up and pee- but she didn't pee on the mat, she peed on the floor & then my other dog pulled his blanket out of his cage & covered up her pee with it....WHY!? why would he do that?! i just washed their shit that day!!! i was SO MAD! so i clean that up & then i got BACK into bed & i was even more livid & UGH! this is NOT healthy.
if this cycle doesn't work- i'm going to have to seek therapy- i'm serious. if i don't i'll probably kill someone. and then go to prison- and i'd totally become someone's bitch in prison- eek. gross.
but yeah- so i'm going to try & be happy today. i passed out my Christmas cards & that always makes me happy. sort of. but at 8:30 when the dr's office opens- oh boy.