Monday, December 31, 2007
happy new year everyone.
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Saturday, December 22, 2007
she's SO pregnant. i saw all the signs and she wrote "i think i might be pregnant" on the calendar near their door. why would you do that? and oh yeah, she hasn't told her husband but he already knows and he's pissed. awesome.
yeah- he was pretty wasted- he kept going around telling everyone that he was "them" it was quite amusing.
i on the other hand only had three drink and i was quite sober- one of us had to drive!
all in all it was a good time.
in other news- i should be ovulating sometime between the 23-25. yes- merry christmas! i hope it's a sign- because it's getting increasingly more difficult to stay positive about this whole process. this is month #9 and i'm getting...meh.
it doesn't help that friends of ours that aready have 3 kids (1 his from a previous marrige & 2 theirs) who have NO MONEY to speak of- live in a tiny 2 bdrm condo- she doesn't work- want a house- again, have NO MONEY EVER- oh yeah, and whos marrige has been on the rocks for a good 3 years (and had a baby in the meantime anyway) think they might be pregnant again. we noticed that she didn't drink at the party last night so my husband asked him what's up and he said he's pretty sure she's pregnant- she hasn't told him and he doesn't want, nor can he afford, anymore kids so he's scared shitless.
way to go- they don't use protection and he refused to get a vasectomy so this is both of their faults- he doesn't want anymore and she said she didn't either but she'd get pregnant just to spite him and etc. they're very weird- if she does announce that she is expecting- i really can't be happy for them. i always listen to her complain about no money & how much her husband is a bad husband and father- my husband lends him money and we make sure that they have certain things that they need all the time. so if they've gone and gotten pregnant again- i really can't be happy for them.
she's also one of my friends that has NO trouble getting pregnant and tells me that i must be doing something wrong because i'm not pregnant yet. it's irks me but i never say anything. ugh- i seriously hope she's not (but i'm almost positive that she is because after hearing that news toda i remember a conversation about birth control & abortion & pregnancy that we had the other night) because it'll probably crush me. i don't know why poor people in bad relashionships have no trouble getting knocked up but us stable people wh actually like each other and want a baby, can't. it's not fair.
blah- lame. anyway.
i'm still thankful for everything that we've been given this year and i know it's all in God's time that we will aquire the things that we pray for.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
i hate that my period is totally kicking my ass this month. lame.
i also hate that my stupid brother is causing a bunch of family dram-rama with his "i'm getting maried- oh wait, no i'm not getting married" crap. also lame.
hmmm- there is also a lot of drama going on, on the botb & gp boards tonight. tsk tsk ladies. no good. it must be drama day.
i'm off to watch CSI. NOICE!
Monday, December 10, 2007
and then to top off the baby weekend- i have been babysitting for these 3 little girls for almost 10 years now (since the first one was born) so i babysat them this weekend along with 2 more little girls that are friends of theirs whom i have babysat for before- well when the 2 other little girls are being dropped off i notice that their mom is about 6-7 months pregnant. they're having another girl. what is UP with all these pregnant ladies and babies and EVERYTHING!?
and i'm pretty sure i'm not pregnant- my period is due by tomorrow or thursday and she's on her way. bitches! ah well. all in His time.
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Sunday, December 2, 2007
Friday, November 30, 2007
moving on: i'm once again in the 2ww. how i love this exciting time. knowing that there is nothing i can do anymore- i'm either pregnant or i'm not. i just have to wait two whole weeks to find out. at least i'll know before christmas.
sunday is brandon's birthday- so i think i need to find him at least one more gift. asjkalf! he's so hard to buy for sometimes. meh.
i need to go "mush" my amish friendship bread.
Please God, let this be our month! PLEASE!!!!! thanks!
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
probably because he licks his butt so much.
so i gave him one of those new icebreakers dissolvable mint packets- and now his breath is no longer so offensive.
also: i should be ovulating within the next couple of days. my opk was negative today- but it'll probably be + tomorrow. if i was a super hardcore TTCer i'd have sex tonight- but let's be real. i'm tired.
we had sex sunday morning- 3 days should be a good amount of time for my husband's sperminators to gear themselves up for battle against my hostile vagina.
Godspeed sperm-men. Godspeed.
Jesus is definately the reason for this holiday season.
Monday, November 26, 2007
this "going back to work after four days off" thing is not working out for me. ugh. the only bright side to coming back is that i was able to pass out my christmas cards. i love being the first one.
i made rice krispie treats last night and this morning they're a little hard. too bad those things are never as good the next day. i'm eating them anyways. at 8 o'clock in the morning. awesome.
in other news:
this weekend i bought new bedding- it is the most comfortable bedding in the world. i've decided that sleeping is now my favorite thing to do. i can't wait to go home and do that.
also when i get home i have to pee on a stick- just an opk but a stick all the same. i don't think there'll be a :) today but i'm expecting it within the next 2-3 days so yeah. i've been drinking green tea and sucking down robitussen (wal-tussen really) and i usually have ewcm anyway- but i have a lot more and i'm hoping it thins out. i wiped last night and there was this amazing glob of it. no matter how often i see it, i'm still struck by how nasty it looks. and by nasty i mean cooool. i'm so gross. i wicked want to post a picture of it- just to freak people out. nice.
meh- anyway. i have to go and attempt to do some work at least.
thank you God for allowing me to live & breath for another day.
Friday, November 23, 2007
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
i like snow: what i don't like is when people drive like they've never seen it before.
how annoying. boo-yah.
i also made a pan of baklava today:
it looks amazing- i pretty much can't wait to eat it. mmm.
Monday, November 19, 2007
but, it's pretty boring- all of our eastern & central time clients are gone- and there are no more mountain & pacific time calls left- so that leaves me with nothing to do for another 2 hours. nothing that is except for post here, read the nest, and listen to my iPod. i'm so cool.
i could have worked from home- but then i'd just be distracted by my husband & my dog- though being distracted would be a welcome reprive from my current boredom. Lordy! maybe i'll work from home tomorrow- this huge empty building is a little creeptastic. meh.
in other news- my period is almost done and from there i can just concentrate on when i'll be ovulating; more so on making sure we stay awake to have sex. i know when the big "O" will be going down- i just don't want to miss our chance. it's to bad my husband and i aren't crazy sex fiends- then we'd never tire of all this sexual activity.
but i'm doing well- plenty of green tea & pnv's. i'm even going to go for the Robittusen this month. who KNEW it would take all this crap to get knocked up. for real.
crap- a client has just rung. boo yah.
God is love.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
i just finished making a pan of blueberry buckle. i had to tweak the original recipe just a bit, and i think it looks faaaab. and it smells divine.
my original plan was to make baklava- but alas- phyllo dough must thaw for 5 hours and i forgot to buy some ahead of time- no way in hell am i making baklava at 10p.m. so plan b...
i also decided to make some boiled eggs- totally random, but i love them. i could seriously eat like 5 at a time. so good.
in other news, we went to my parents today. my dad is pretty sick because of the cancer-pnemonia-hole in his lung etc. i mean, if that doesn't make you feel like crap then i don't know what would- good Lord. so because my mother has better things to do than cook & clean- i brought over some pasta dishes & other things. i also cleaned the bathroom- it's amazing what 8 people in one house can do to a bathroom. meh!
we talked about things- God, church, people, life etc etc. it's refreshing to talk to my mother. for someone who runs around like a chicken with her head cut off- counseling people, running a church, managing her family & etc. the woman is amazingly calm and put together. that's God. amen.
ah well. i'm going to eat something. getting my period gives me an excuse to eat shit. i need to get pregnant or i'm going to get fat. how ironic.
"But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint" Isaiah 40:31
Saturday, November 17, 2007
i mean, i'm happy for him- but really. why can't he just pick up his truck and come home like normal people.
also- i'm now on cycle day 1. awesome. maybe #8 will be the lucky one. maybe not. asjkyhgt!!!!
hmmm- we just went grocery shopping, yet we have no food. except fresca- i have an affinity for fresca. and cream puffs. God, i'm so mentally pregnant. bitches!
trust in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding.