baby seals are cute

look at this picture of a baby seal:


photo courtesy of google

holycrapomgadorable right?

(of course while i was googling "baby seals" & getting my cute fix, i ran across several pictures of baby seals being clubbed & immediately wanted to cry. omg?! who DOES that?! i had no idea...i am legit, sad right now. & confused. ::sad face::)

ok- so that seal is really cute? all things baby seals = cute. it's a fact.
so if someone was like, "oh, your child reminds me of a baby seal!" one would think that = my child's cuteness rivals that of an infant seal. kick ass. so awesome.

but alas. it does not. because what they're trying to tell you is, "omg- when baby seals bark & make that weird noise it's really cute- but now your kid is doing that & it sounds straight up awful..."

so yeah. brynn = a baby seal. because she's barking like one.

all night. all morning. all day. yay.

so for the 2nd time in less than a week (we took a pedi trip last week thanks to another yeast rash) my youngest & i got to spend some time bonding @ the pedi's office.

after the receptionist performed the usual routine: take my card. look @ insurance coverage info. cringe & shoot me a look of pity ($3k deductible here people). collect my co-pay. send me on my way.

we saw the nice lady doc & she validated me bring my child in by dx'ing her with croup & an ear infection (the joys). she prescribed an oral steroid & an rx for the ear & told me to waste water (with good reason) by running my shower & blah blah blah.

& to thank me for my concern & prompt pedi trip- my child let me dress her & then sat as far away from me as she could in an attempt to insure that i would try to steal any of her fruit snacks:



such is love.

so yes. croup & an ear infection. this explains the semi-fevered child that clung to me for the majority of last evening whilst barking in my ear & splattering my face with spit.

spit that no doubt held quite a bit of germs because now my throat feels scratchy.

poor kid. but thanks to modern medicine & deep pockets (lol, who am i kidding?) she should be back to her old self within a few days.

and to end this on another cute note- here's another baby seal:


photo courtsey of google

not as cute as a baby sloth- but close.

happy birthday brynn

well, as of Sat Dec 10th my baby is 1.

she does lots of toddler'esq things. like walk, throw tantrums, hit her sister, drink from a cup, talk (sort of) & etc etc. but she also still does baby'esq things. like take a bottle at night (no idea how to break her of this one) &...oh wait. that's it. damn.

well, she does like to get up & party around 4 am which i do not approve of. i try & let her cry it out- but she's one of those, "i'm going to cry until i throw up" kids & i just can't get down with that.

so i bring her to bed. & she stays up. & kicks me. & slaps me.
so i tell her to "knock it off" & put her back in her crib.
where she screams & throws a fit.
so i bring her back. & we do it all again.

this morning i finally deposited her back in the crib around 5:15 where she SHRIEKED for 5 minutes & then fell back asleep.

then my alarm went off 15 minutes later & i glared at her door as i walked by.
yeah that's right.

then 5 minutes before i had to leave she woke up in a splendid mood, bouncing around in her crib. she's a delight- let me tell you.

but seriously. we love her. she's great.

the party went swell & i'll get those pictures up soon.
but i wanted to get this blip up in case you were wondering if i'd managed to turn back time.

4 months old

brynn turned 4 months old yesterday.

i feel there is no other way for me to express how beautiful & gifted she is than to share with you her 4 month picture:

a perfect little lady.

am i right?

but in all seriousness- 4 months old already? i find myself trying to figure out how the past 120+ days have come & gone, seemingly, without my knowledge.

4 months ago this child was expelled from my ute like a rocket (i'm not exagerating- she was- it was intense) and now she lights up our lives with her husky laughs & piercing screams.

and her expressions- epic.

i could go on & on about my child.

- how much she's like her sister, yet all her own.

- how she loves to snuggle- so much that this is in fact her nickname- "snuggles"

- how she loves to breastfeed. if she even catches site of me unclipping my nursing tank she launches herself in the general direction of my chest with a hystarical sense of urgency.

- how she adores her big sister. ADORES. alex can do no wrong. even when alex is the reason for her pain (hello wooden puzzle board broadside against her skull) i am the one who she directs angy & tearful eyes towards.

- how she coos & sings at 3am & i can't be angry with her because she's so freaking cute.

- how she's content to sit & simply chill.

- how she tweaks the eff out in the car if she's decided she's done. because when she's done- she's DONE.

and the list goes on. but these things are far more interesting & endearing to me- her mother. what the people want to see are pictures- am i right? so here they are- the many faces of brynn everly:

and i have so many more, like 4 months worth. but i'll restrain myself.

this weekend was a blast. perfect weather, tons of outside time, church, lunch out- etc etc. and pictures galore- but everything all in one post is simply too much. i'll spread it out this week.

but i'll leave you with a preview:

fun things ahead. like popsicles, tip-toeing, twirling & chickens. hooray.

brynn everly's birth story

When i went to bed on Wed night i noticed some cramping- but i thought nothing of it since i'd been cramping for days. i'd also noticed random contractions for days- but nothing significant or painful.

thursday morning dawned with the same cramping & an aching pelvis- but again, nothing that would make me think- "oh, labour!"

as i got ready for the day i noticed more contractions- painless but there. i made a mental note to watch them, but i was determined to make it to the Burlington Mall so i pushed on.

i got alex up & ready & my best friend (megan) arrived around 9ish. we headed out & got to the mall around 10:30ish. we unloaded & started walking around.

almost immediately i noticed the contractions- they were much more...insistent? and they slightly took my breath away. however, they weren't painful & i could still function. plus, i didn't want to worry anyone (and i still needed to hit up Anthrapologie) so i kept my mouth shut.

we finished up at the mall & headed over to the Macaroni Grill for lunch. i ate a good bit- i had a feeling i'd need to.

we started off for home & pulled in around 2-3? maybe? not sure. anyway.

megan stuck around so i had a chance to throw my hospital bag & alex's bag together while alex was occupied. i still didn't say anything- megan has excitement issues. heh.

around 5ish i noticed that my contractions were picking up- and they were slightly unpleasant. hmmmm- well, megan wasn't leaving until 6 so i waited until then to start timing.

5:15pm- i go to the bathroom & notice blood. when i wipe- there it is. my mucus plug. i inspected it because i never got to see my other one- it looks just like it's name. nasty.

6:00pm- start timing contractions. 1 minute long & 5-7 min apart. crap. oh, and OUCH! almost as soon as megan walked out the door they started to hurt. like in the movies- you know?

so i did what anyone would do- i straightened my hair. it needed to be done! alex ran around getting into everything & i simply didn't care. i was too busy trying to breath & finish up.

6:30pm- my body starts cleaning itself out. i think we all know what this means. as i sit on the toilet in pain, i can hear my child ripping ornaments off the Christmas tree & trying to feed them to the dogs.. and there's nothing i can do about it. awesome.

6:45pm- i call my OB. contractions are now 3-5 min apart & i'm focused on breathing to stay on my feet.

OB says: "go to labour & delivery now!"

i say: "well my husband isn't home- when he gets here at 7 we'll head out- is that ok?"

OB says: "...alright. but don't dally."

ok cool. OB doesn't sound too freaked, so i'm golden.

i get everything together & the husband pulls in- as he opens the front door i tell him to start putting stuff in the car because we're having a baby within the next few hours.

he goes into overdrive & starts getting things together. once i'm sure he's got a handle on things (ie: alex) i hop into the tub. a girl needs to be clean & tidy people. so i had to make sure the OB didn't mistake me for a man.

by now the contractions have me doubling over- but hell if i'm going to let that stop me. i finish up, towel off & get dressed. i can hear the husband mumbling & asking who the hell gets int he shower when they're in labour.

i tell him i can hear him & that it is what it is.

we put the dogs in their cage, shut the lights, pet the cats, close the chickens up, blow out the candles & get into the car.

as we're en-rout i realize that my contractions are about 2-3 min apart- and i'm breathing like a bull in order to stay sane.

the original plan was to drop alex off at the in-laws & then head to the hospital- but i say screw that noise. drop me off first & then take alex. i can make my way to L&D.

the hubs agrees & when we get to the hospital 20 min later i roll out of the car & huff my way in.

i stop at the Registration Desk where the nice old lady & the security guard look terrified.

picture me, huge & huffing- shuffling towards you...yeah.

me: "do i....(huff huff breathe)...need to check iiiin?!?!"

old lady: "are you in labour?!?!"

me: "...(hufffffff)...YES!"

old lady: "oh my GOD- no on! just get to L&D dearie!"

security guard: "oh man. do you need a wheelchair???"

me: "nooo...(breathe), no i'm ok!"

security guard: (looks doubtful but eager to get me out of here) "well ok. upstairs- now!"

me: "thanks." (huff, huff, shuffle)

as i made my way upstairs the contractions got worse. it was like stepping into the hospital made my body go into warp drive.

when i got to L&D the nurses were waiting. but my room wasn't- son of a...!

as they verified my identity i started crying. my God- this hurts. wtf?!

the nurse told me to breathe & hang on. so i breathed & labored in the hallway for about 10 min.

once my room was ready i dragged myself in- whimpering away. i got undressed & into a gown & into bed.

by now i'm sobbing through contractions. 1-2 min apart- 1 min long- omg hurt hurt hurt!

8:30pm- my OB comes in to check me. EFF ME! i forgot how much internals suck. WTF!?

he apologizes. but good news! i'm 4cm & 100% effaced. hooray. i'm in labour- duh.

do i want an epidural? EFF YES! NOW!

well we have to wait. of course. so the nurse gets my IV going & we wait.

the husband arrives around 9ish? i'd say 9ish. he watches me snot my way through a few contractions & then turns on the TV. it's easier for everyone this way.

then around 9:15 the most wonderful man in the world walks in. the one whom i might consider leaving my husband for- Ye Anesthesiologist. he promises to make it all better & gets to work.

within 10 minutes i've signed my life away & i'm doubled over a pillow snotting my face off.

pinch. burn. done. he whispers sweet nothings in my ear- promises of euphoria within 15 minutes. oh how i love thee.

POP. GUSH.

my water breaks. and i say: "omg- my water just broke. OMG GROSS! there's SO MUCH! what a MESS! i'm SORRY!" (insert sobbing)

the nurse assures me that this is quite ok & normal. oh yeah- right. the OB comes to take a look- hello meconium. little baby bird has pooped inside me. super. we'll keep an eye on that.

and then the epi kicks in. and i get cleaned up & i sleep. sweet sleep.

11:30pm- after checking my monitors every 20 min or so the nurse declares that my contractions have all but stopped. lame. hello pitocin. i remember you. you make things move fast & cause pain.

oh- you want to give me some? ok. let's do this.

12am- oh wow. they're back & in full force. and they hurt- i can feel them through the epi. EFF ME AGAIN!

the nurse & i give my epi more juice every chance we get. but to no avail. oy.

why does this hurt so bad? why does my butt feel like it's going to explode? well let's check & see...

12:30am- oh. i'm 10cm & fully effaces & heck yeah- i can push. but not too much because the OB isn't ready. superb.

12:50am- i start pushing. good job- i'm doing well. but wait- we can't keep tabs on the baby. she keeps dropping off.

the nurse has me move all over. right side- left side- right side- upside- downside. crap.

push. push. move. move. STOP STOP STOP! CRAP- THERE SHE IS! but wait- no OB. DON'T PUSH!

I'M NOT! but i can feel her crowning. i can feel her head- my God i just want to push her out. but i hold on. i'm on my side- trying not to roll over...

the OB rushes in & as he sits down, out she comes. he almost drops her- but he gets her leg. whew.

the hubs was going to cut the cord- but it's wrapped around her neck 3x & it's tangled to boot. so she's not breathing or crying or anything. so now i freak out- everyone tells me she's fine.

the OB cuts & unwraps. they whisk her over to the warmer & start suctioning.

i'm bawling- literally. the hubs tells me it's ok. shhhhh.

and then she cries. sweet relief. i smile. i laugh. THANK GOD!

the OB comes back over to take care of business. out comes the placenta- do i want to keep it?

um- no thanks.

he checks me out. NO RIPS! NO TEARS! NADA! amen.

he shakes our hands & congrats us. the nurse finishes up & the husband brings my little girl over. gah!

i love her. she's perfect. and awake. she eats (and i'm immediately reminded why the 1st few days of breastfeeding are comparable to torture)

we spend time with her. touch. kiss. gush. cry. whisper.

they take her after a bit (shots, warm up, blood levels- etc etc) and the husband follows.

my legs feel almost normal so the nurse helps me to the bathroom.

it all comes back to me. the bleeding, pads, Dermoplast, Tucks, hemorrhoids (shudder)- but it's worth it.

after i ruin a few pairs of hospital socks- i'm clean & dry & padded & back in bed.

i inhale 1/2 a sandwich & sadly save the other 1/2 for the husband. i'm a good wife like that.

i down about 4 glasses of ginger ale & chew about 2 cups of ice.

i twiddle my thumbs & wait. and then they bring her back. and the husband. (who quickly eats the other sandwich 1/2 ::sigh::)

she's still awake! i feed her again (ouch) and she latches like a champ. in fact- she's quite voracious which is so different than alex.

the nurses leave us with promises to bother us every hour for the next 2 days. the husband goes to sleep & i spend time with my newest daughter. i can't help but examine every inch of her. i give her 1500 kisses & feed her every time she cries.

i walk her & shush her & burp her & change her & love her.

and i cry- because hormones are a bitch.

eventually, with her tucked securely to my side, i sleep.

brynn everly.

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the husband went & got alex later that day. she wasn't sure what to make of things- but she had a blast sitting in the bed & later playing with the birthing ball.

and after assuring the hospital that i'd be A-Ok, we left on saturday.

i looked pretty rough.

but brynn (wearing the same outfit her big sister came home in) looked adorable.

...and sort of beat up.

the end.

brynn everly bird

12.10.10

she arrived on her due date. healthy & whole.

alex thinks she's just dandy...mostly.

and we came home today, on 12.11.10.

i'd have loved to stay in the hospital the extra day- but being home is easier on miss alex- so home it is.

i'll type out all the details later. but for now i rest, cry, feed, rock, change- etc etc.

and dear God- how could i have forgotten the pain of breastfeeding??? barely 2 days in & i'm dying. i've resorted to a nipple shield- need. relief. now.

but it's worth it. oh indeed.