just us- deep

i don't get very "deep" on this blog. it's not that i'm incapable of doing so- it's just something that doesn't come naturally to me.

i actually go out of my way to read blogs where moms "go deep" because it makes me feel less grinch like.
but for real- i mean, my husband & kid know i love them, so why do i need to spell it out? right?

well, alex & i actually had a pretty "deep" past few days so i shall expound on the experience.

the husband skydives- it's his "thing" and a couple times a year he'll take about 4 days to do just that. so thursday - sun he was off doing his thing while alex & i were left to our own devices.

i got her up. i put her down. i dressed her. i fed her. i clothed her, i changed her. i played with her. i held her. i "walked" with her. i danced with her. i sang to her (poor thing). i laughed with her. i told her no. i told her yes. i told her good job. i clapped for her.

you catch my drift. now these are normally the things i mainly do anyway- but it was somehow different because noone else was around to possibly be "part" of it all. it was just us.
and even though i was exhausted by day's end- i loved it. i loved the fact that it was the 2 of us against the world (a little extreme but still).

we had an awesome 3 1/2 days alone (punctuated by an outing here & there)

and when daddy came up unexpectedly early on sunday afternoon i was tickled pink to see the alex was content to sit with me.
even as she grinned & babbled at him, it was my neck that her sticky fingers clung to. and when he handed her a cheerio it was me that she offered to share it with. me!

after about 20 minutes the presence of daddy won her over. the promise of being held an extra 8 inches higher in the air is too much for an 11 month old to resist.

but as her held her & she looked over his shoulder- it was still me that she held her hand out to. and when i grabbed her hand and followed them around the yard, it was i who was smacked with the full 100 volt wattage of her smile.

and as i reveled in that moment i realized that in 15 years she'll bestow upon me the same smile while standing next to a 2 door sports car that she's decided she wants us to buy for her 16th birthday...and then i felt a little sick inside; because i know, as i watched her turn that smile on daddy who immediately went starry eyed , that even if i can resist the "deep" enough to say "absolutely not!", daddy will say "yes, of course!"

and now- onto something i'm good at. pictures! i have a ton- so i'll post some today & some tomorrow (or wed or whenever)

saturday was the perfect weather for sitting outside in next to no clothing- so that's what we did (don't worry- i kept my clothes on):











she was so content to be almost naked. and full of popsicles.




the sun was perfect




and alex & cessna once again cemented their friendship



you should know this face by now. it's the "no you can't eat acorns because you're not a squirrel!" fallout face.







i managed manged to get some "us" shots. i once again neglected to grab the camera remote- so an insane amount of running back & forth ensued.





and getting up close & personal shots is next to impossible. focus where? focus what?




and trying to capture the "deep" serenity that i felt = fail.

but you get the idea.
i hope everyone had a wonderful, "deep" weekend.