6dpFET

ok- i'm 6 days past my FET & 11dpo. my temp took a nosedive this morning & i'm still really crampy- but no spotting (but that could simply be thanks to the supps) so i'm not sure what to think. i guess we'll see what that temp does tomorrow.



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technically my period is due tomorrow- but i doubt it'll start with me using the Estrace & Progesterone...soooo we wait. if i start spotting, i'll know i'm out- but i'm trying to stay postive. boo ya!



in other news: omg i love Koalas- i wicked want one. a baby one- that is all.

5dpFET

so i'm 5 days past my FET- and i don't know what to think. i don't "feel" pregnant or anything- there have been no bolts of lightening or weird sensations or anything like so- so i really don't know. i'm also 10dpo so i usually start spotting today- however since i'm on the supps, i might not- blargh!

i'm way to freaked to test- i really don't think i can do it- maybe this weekened if my period doesn't rear it's ugly head by then- waiting sucks!

i'm trying to stay positive- i really am this time. so we'll see i guess. it's out of my hands now. i erally pray that i'm knocked up- really, really, really!!! but if i'm not, at least i can drink at the Adkins/t.bird gtg next weekened- yeeeah- good times!

our new family member

this is what happens when you can't have kids:

you go out & buy cute little puppies!!!
it just can't be helped!

no, she wasn't "planned"
we don't know how it happened!!!
but we still love her!!!
our new baby girl, Cessna!!! her big brother, max, is a little jealous- but he still loves her :)

1dp FET

*UPDATE* so i just went to the bathroom & when i wiped there was bright red blood on the tp..hmmm- that doesn't seem normal.according to my chart: i'm technically about 9 dpo today (my chart states this, but when i had my US on the 3rd, there was a still a huge follicle & i hadn't ovulated yes- so i think i ovulated on the 4th or 5th so that would be me either 6 or 7 dpo- if i disacard the 3rd's temp then FF gives me dotted crosshairs for the 5th which makes more sense- who knows! http://www.fertilityfriend.com/ttc/index.php) & i usually start spotting around 10 dpo & FP shows up by 12 dpo. sometimes when i go to the bathroom i get red blood around 8-9 dpo- ugh. it would suck if this was over before it even started. *UPDATE*

so i noticed, this morning, that my liner was "speckled" with blood amongst all the progesterone crap that leaks out. also when i just went to the bathroom- there was a bit of reddish "cm" as well- again, it's mostly the suppositories leaking out- also when i wiped there was some reddish coloration on the tissue.

i'm assuming this is a result of the FET yesterday- it went pretty smoothly but there was a small issue with the catheter not wanting to do what it was supposed to- eventually it did (we saw it on the screen) and all was well- but brandon said he saw blood on the end of it when they pulled it out- the RE also pointed it out to the nurse and told ehr to take a look @ it- he assured us that it, in no way, had an affect on the FET itself. so since they were all "up in my shit" yesterday, i'm assuming that's the reason for the spotting today. sooo yeah- i'm also a little crampy too- hoping that these are all good signs.

i try not to get my hopes up. but we're feeling good about this cycle- we're really praying this is it!!! i'm also being reasonable & not getting my hopes up that high- we know it could go either way!

if this doesn't work i think our next step will be to take a look @ exactely what my tubes are "blocked" with- is it scar tissue or fluid? if it's fluid, is it leaking into my uterus & preventing implantation? (fluid leaks into the uterus are toxic to embryos) lovely! do i need another HSG or maybe a LAP (which my RE isn't "fond" of) ? who knows- here's hoping that i don't even have to worry about all of that!!!

anywho- i'm glad it's friday! i'm going out to the Olive Garden tonight with some friends & i'm just going to relax- i'd like to have a drink, but i probably shouldn't...ha!
ok- i gotta go "work" -ciao!

back from FET

this is just an xp from thenest:

anyway- my FET went smoothly- my bladder was way too full so they let me pee "a little" ummm- it's really hard to pee for 10 seconds & then stop...sooo i cheated & peed for 15 seconds. omg- it felt sooo good. better than anything in the world.

moving on, so we transferred two 5 day blasts & 1 was already expanding since that morning's thaw, so that sounded like good news cause i think it goes: blast, expand, hatching, implant etc. yeah, so they shot them in (after a little trouble with the catheter) and everything looked good.

they wished us luck & made me lie there for 15 min. after that timer went off i jumped up & booked it to the bathroom- wow. i love peeing sooo much.

so 2 of the embies didn't survive the thaw & 2 did- so we have 5 left! let's hope we don't need them for awhile!!!

the picture above: the "expanding blast" is on the left & the "blast" is on the right. we're relly praying this works!!!
to my girls on thenest: thank you so much for all your prayers & well wishes!! <3

p.s. and because i wanted it, ont he way home i made brandon stop & get me a Thin Mint DQ Blizzard- omg yum!!! we also got Taco Bell...i wish i could wat this crap everyday!!!! damn my expanding waistline!!!

we're back!

well we're back- we had fun!!! we want to go back next year too- it's nice to just get away! i'll save you from reading & just post some pictures!!!


our cabin...


cabin & max in the car...


fishing with max & a dragonfly...



snuggles with max, brandon...smiling? & the gorgeous view!!!

there's some food pics in the food blog- but this about sums it up! northern NH & ME is sooo beautiful & we had a great time- but i wouldnt want to live there!!! there wasn't a grocery store to be found! not even a Target :o
i can't live like that!!! :)

p.s. we saw a moose! yippeeeee!

and we're off!

i just posted about our weekend to be & stupid blogger ate it- i'm annoyed!! so here's the condensed verison:

basically we leave tomorrow (the 3rd) to go up to http://www.magriverinn.com/ in Erroll, NH- we'll be there until mon (the 7th, which is our actual anniv) we're taking max with us & we're just going to chill out & relax.

i have my FET CD 14 bloodwork & ultrasound tomorrow morning, so we'll start out after that- it takes about 4 hours to get up there, so we'll take our time.
it should be fun- lot's of fishing & hiking & reading & sleeping & playing with max & blah blah blah! not working!!! i have a feeling there is no WIFI so i don't think i'll be able to get online.

::prays for a painless detox::

hahaha! sooo yeah!

oh Lordy- that's it
ciao