my saturday

so i'm going to one of my best friend's bridal shower today. she's getting married on 8/8/08!!! i'm so happy for her- it's funny too because i got married on 7/7/07 :) aaaanyway- i wrapped up her baking pans & such last night & i must say, i love my wrapping job:



wouldn't you be excited to open this?!

aaalso- i got my Plumeria Plant (white plumeria) on thursday. i thought it was supposed to have blooms but it obviously does not- but it's ok- it's got 2 pretty leaves (there were 3, stupid USPS) & some great roots. i re-potted it yesterday with a nice 50/50 mix of Sta Green All Purpose Potting Mix & Perlite- i watered it well & let it drain- and now i won't water it again until the soil is nice & dry. i'm really hoping it grows well & give me some flowers next spring. i also ordered another one with blooms (orange/pink blooms) and that should get here sometime next week.



the cats we're very interested in this new addition!
and that's about it- now i'm just looking forward to our wtf?! appt on tues!!! i can't wait to start my FET cycle! i really pray it works this time- PLEASE GOD!
ciao!

back to work

ugh- i don't WANT to work. lame. anyway- i finally saw Juno the other night- it was cute! i enjoyed it.

as for the rest of this past weekend- we simply hung out, ran some small errands, watched movies/tv, and just...hung out. the weather was awesome and i think i got a bit of a tan. it was nice to just sit around & not have to DO anything. i think i could get used to a life like that- honestly.

but now it's back to reality. it's only 4 more days..and only 7 days until our wtf?! appt. so at least i have that to look forward to. amen.

the chronicles of narnia

we went and saw Prince Caspian and it was aaaawesome. it almost made me cry because it brought me back to all the the dreams and imagination i had as a child. i used to sit and PRAY to God that He would let me find the entrance into Narnia. i just wanted to BE there SO BAD! haha- it's funny now but back then, my imagination took over and i REALLY believed that there was a Narnia. i totally convinced myself. even now, there is a small piece of me that still wants it to be true. of course it's not- but i can dream!

but yeah- it was awesome. if you have an affinity for The Chronicles Of Narnia, like i do, then i strongly suggest you go see this movie. you won't be dissapointed.

i also needed some new flowers because my lilacs died- they had a good run though. so i went over to The Blushing Rose and bought some white & blue hydrangeas:


they're beautiful & they smell wonderful- one of the cats (i'm thinking it was gary) knocked them over- but they survived the fall and still look wonderful. they won't last long- i'll probably get 3-4 days out of them- but it'll be worth it! i had wanted these for my wedding centerpieces but they were out of season & way to $$$. this little bunch alone cost me $8! so yeah- we went with some cheaper white nondescript flowers. it worked.
God Bless

Beta= 0

so the nurse called and told me my beta = 0. really?! duh, i could have told them that! instead of being sad, we will look at cute pictures of the "kids" when i took them outside to play last saturday.

here's maceo being fat- haha! she's camera shy. this accounts for the 1 picture of her.


and gary, playing in the grass, stalking & eating bugs- like a kitty tiger.


maximus- rolling around, getting filthy. he's so cute!

i'm so glad it's almost summer- sooooo glad!

WTF Appt scheduled!!!

WTF?! Appt w/RE: June 3rd @ 3 p.m.

yay! i'm glad we got an appt so fast! i also spoke with the nurse today & told her i was having an OBVIOUS period & i am NOT taking any more supps or pills- she said ok, i also told her i want my BETA test moved up- she said ok, hah! of course she did! i have to go in tomorrow @ 7 for my pointless blood test. they're also going to check some other levels too. she kept saying my LP was short but it really wasn't- she didn't know i had a 5 day transfer- psha!
so yeah- she was saying if my progesterone level sucks then i'll have to do PIO shots next time- um, NO! my levels were fine! even high! so i can hopefully just stick to the suppositories. she also said my FET wouldn't be this cycle (obviously) but most likely next cycle (so june! yay!) and yeah. soooo, i'm glad they have finally listened to me & that i have a WTF?! appt set up & that we have some frozen embies!
that's all for now- i'm going to go do all the things pregnant women can't do :)

9dp5dt = CD1

hmmm- well there is no doubt about it now!!! AF started with a VENGENCE this morning- horrible! so i'm going to call my nurses again & let them know, & also tell them that i refuse to take any meds or suppositories- ha! well see what they say about that! i'm also going to insists that they move my beta up- i want to get it over with & move on. so there!!!

so that's that!!! i'm SO drinking this weekend :)
God Bless

8dp5dt = BFN

IVF#1= BFN

i'm calling it- i tested again and it was a BFN- duh. so i went against dr's orders & didn't take my progesterone suppositories last night or this morning- and now i can feel AF starting to "move"
i'm still getting the stupid Estrace pills today & i'm trying to decide if i'm going to use them or not- i'm thinking no, but i'm not sure. they're not going to do anything- but i feel like my RE will know if i don't use them, and then he'll yell at me or something. yikes! but it's stupid- it's a waste of time & money for me to take them. blah.

so now we wait- wait for my period to start with a vengence and then wait till my pointless Beta on the 27th and then wait for our WTF Appt with the RE and then wait to start our FET cycle and then wait some more. stupid waiting- it's very boring. whatever- i'm going to drink my 180 today & eat chocolate & have sex (well, not today- haha) & change the cat litter box (meh)
God Bless