happy new year

i haven't had a new year where all i did was stay in the house all night- but it looks like that's what we'll be doing this year. we had quite a bit of snow last night & today so going out would be a bit of a pain in the ass. it was simply going to be a night of boredom & drinking at brandon's best friend's house but that's better than nothing. meh. oh well. it's really not all that bad. i'll ring in the new year with a book.

happy new year everyone.

merry christmas

i ovulated today. merry christmas to me! maybe it's a sign!

and merry christmas to everyone else!
God bless!

ugh

*UPDATE*

she's SO pregnant. i saw all the signs and she wrote "i think i might be pregnant" on the calendar near their door. why would you do that? and oh yeah, she hasn't told her husband but he already knows and he's pissed. awesome.
how annoying.

drunken stupor

this is my husband after getting trashed at his christmas party:



yeah- he was pretty wasted- he kept going around telling everyone that he was "them" it was quite amusing.
i on the other hand only had three drink and i was quite sober- one of us had to drive!
all in all it was a good time.

in other news- i should be ovulating sometime between the 23-25. yes- merry christmas! i hope it's a sign- because it's getting increasingly more difficult to stay positive about this whole process. this is month #9 and i'm getting...meh.

it doesn't help that friends of ours that aready have 3 kids (1 his from a previous marrige & 2 theirs) who have NO MONEY to speak of- live in a tiny 2 bdrm condo- she doesn't work- want a house- again, have NO MONEY EVER- oh yeah, and whos marrige has been on the rocks for a good 3 years (and had a baby in the meantime anyway) think they might be pregnant again. we noticed that she didn't drink at the party last night so my husband asked him what's up and he said he's pretty sure she's pregnant- she hasn't told him and he doesn't want, nor can he afford, anymore kids so he's scared shitless.
way to go- they don't use protection and he refused to get a vasectomy so this is both of their faults- he doesn't want anymore and she said she didn't either but she'd get pregnant just to spite him and etc. they're very weird- if she does announce that she is expecting- i really can't be happy for them. i always listen to her complain about no money & how much her husband is a bad husband and father- my husband lends him money and we make sure that they have certain things that they need all the time. so if they've gone and gotten pregnant again- i really can't be happy for them.

she's also one of my friends that has NO trouble getting pregnant and tells me that i must be doing something wrong because i'm not pregnant yet. it's irks me but i never say anything. ugh- i seriously hope she's not (but i'm almost positive that she is because after hearing that news toda i remember a conversation about birth control & abortion & pregnancy that we had the other night) because it'll probably crush me. i don't know why poor people in bad relashionships have no trouble getting knocked up but us stable people wh actually like each other and want a baby, can't. it's not fair.

blah- lame. anyway.
i'm still thankful for everything that we've been given this year and i know it's all in God's time that we will aquire the things that we pray for.

snow days

i love getting sent home from work, because it's snowing, and still get paid. that's super.

i hate that my period is totally kicking my ass this month. lame.
i also hate that my stupid brother is causing a bunch of family dram-rama with his "i'm getting maried- oh wait, no i'm not getting married" crap. also lame.

hmmm- there is also a lot of drama going on, on the botb & gp boards tonight. tsk tsk ladies. no good. it must be drama day.

i'm off to watch CSI. NOICE!

babies everywhere

my church had this little "shin dig" thing this weekend, so on saturday i went with my husband and our friends and their two children- ok fun. we get there and my friend (who i haven't seen in a couple months) let's us know that she is pregnant with her 6th kid! they have 5 boys already- and this was a WOOPS! i'm happy for them- but seriously, come on! i also bump into a good friend that i grew up with, whom i also haven't seen in a little while, and she askes me when we're planning on having a baby. she already has a 2 1/2 year old and had NO trouble getting pregnant (in fact no one in her family does) meh! i don't know.

and then to top off the baby weekend- i have been babysitting for these 3 little girls for almost 10 years now (since the first one was born) so i babysat them this weekend along with 2 more little girls that are friends of theirs whom i have babysat for before- well when the 2 other little girls are being dropped off i notice that their mom is about 6-7 months pregnant. they're having another girl. what is UP with all these pregnant ladies and babies and EVERYTHING!?

and i'm pretty sure i'm not pregnant- my period is due by tomorrow or thursday and she's on her way. bitches! ah well. all in His time.

God bless.

damn dreams

i had a dream last night that i was pregnant.
that would be nice.
for realz.


amen.

happy birthday

p.s. my amish friendship bread came out AWESOME! i already ate a piece. it's wicked good!

today is my husband's birthday, and tomorrow is his mother's- so we're going over to his parents in 30min to celebrate...again- we went out to dinner last night with them & his brother, his fiance & her son- but that was more for him than her- this is all for her.

so in honor of their births: i just finished making this tiramisu cake. i think it came out rather well. i cut out the letters & everything. i'm pleased- and can't wait to show it off so his family can oooh & awww. i'm such an attention slut. hehe!

i'm also waiting on it to snow...come on already! i want to stay home tomorrow!

that's all. happy 28th birthday brandon! love you!

thank you God that even though it's wicked cold out- we are safe & warm.